JOY??

So... I Love the idea of JOY, and not just happiness. And that's definitely part of my reasoning behind the title of my blog. BUT! I do NOT always feel joyful. Today is Definitely a SAD day. This morning I worked really early, then as I hurried across the parking lot to try to talk with my professor, my feet flew out from under me and I fell flat on my back. My backpack was counted as a miracle, because it really did break my fall. Pretty much though, I am just sad. This is kind of just a rough time because changes can be hard for me, and I miss Mac a TON, but on top of it I've been really emotional for the past week or 2, and tonight left me with a few things that just brought me down. (I don't think the very LOUD, very pessimistic lady sitting behind me at the Lady Eagles Basketball game helped much...) So... my night has been really sad, with a lot of tears and frustrations. Despite all that though, my roommate helped cheer me up, and fudge is always happy, and I DIDN'T miss the AEPA registration deadline like I thought I did. The night is ending on a slightly happier note than where it began.

I'm still sad about leaving Flagstaff for a lot of reasons. 1. My roommates have been great! We've had a semester full of fun times, and laughs, and hillarious quotes, and just hanging out and living room "sleep overs".... and ... and ... and... It's been a great apartment. 2. The Dutton's have been like "home" to me, and I feel so much like a part of their family, but they're not going to be 5 minutes away anymore. I won't be able to stop and visit at my whim. Scout will miss me, I will miss him, and we'll both miss our walks. 3. I LOVE the weather in Flagstaff. Yeah, it's 4 degrees outside right now, which can be painfully cold, but I LOVE it. It's really cold right now, but we've got SNOW. Where I'm moving, snow only happens in the movies. and I will melt there. 4. Student teaching is one HUGE step closer to the real world responsibilities that are coming so soon. I realize that after the semesters I've been through recently, the semester that's coming up should actually be pretty easy. 5. Moving is a lot of work. I like to move, but I hate moving. This time in particular is really hard, because my wonderful, new, little car is TINY! ... Normally that's a great thing, but NOT when I need to move all of my posessions 200 miles. 6. Did I mention that I'm going to MELT when spring comes??? 7. I'm going to be farther from connections to Mac, and memories of Mac... but each big change, and each little struggle brings me closer to dreams coming true.

Well... These are my ramblings for tonight. Take it. Or leave it. Just don't judge me for it.

The End.